#83: Day 5 – What do I put up with?

What do you have to put up with in your life? How long have you been tolerating it?

Ahh! A question I never thought I’d have to answer soon! So many things bug me everyday, things I hope would just disappear. Like my being so shy, my being so ashamed of a lot of things about me that I shouldn’t be. But we all have our hated flaws right? It’s part of our build, to improve or erase that flaw.

So I guess there’s really just one thing I’m tired of tolerating – and that’s the uncertainty of the future. As a Christian, we’re taught to put our trust and faith in the Lord, and to know that He has everything under control. But sometimes, I just wish that life came with a guide or a specific learner’s book we could use to know what to do, where to go, which choice to make. Something that says, “Veeyah, if you do this, you will be able to reach your dream of being a lawyer, have a husband and have two kids.” and another choice just near it saying, “Veeyah, if you decide to do that, you will not be able to go to college for a long time but when you do, it won’t be in Manila.”

Get what I’m saying? If only life had an instruction manual complete with choices and results, everyone would be happy. But I understand why God didn’t do that. If He did, we wouldn’t need to rely on His guidance and the Bible for our life. We’d have everything we needed on our hands. If this happened, we wouldn’t need God. And I don’t want that.

It’s comforting to know there’s a Father looking out for you every hour of each day, knowing you, loving you, and just being there for you. Knowing God is always there for His children is very heart-warming.

So there. :)